Thursday, January 5, 2012

I am Sorry...!

Its a famous saying, if you have enemies in life, it means you've stood up for something in life. In all honesty at first glance the statement sounds very appealing. In most cases it may also sound true with its nature trying to generate an innate form of sympathy and a feeling of self-righteousness. But nobody tells you what to do when this enemy is your own conscience. At this moment a huge tower comes crumbling down on you and you lay in a shambles with a state of mental palsy. In this heightened state of no gray cell support you do end up taking the wrong way.

People say goodbyes are pathetic, I do agree with them. Its the only time when sympathy also finds itself in that pool of unemployment. But another motion that finds itself in the same league is sorry. Perception can be a two faced bitch and they do not necessarily agree with each other even after a comprehensive and rational analysis of both sides.

Everybody makes mistakes. Perception can be very crucial here. One may think the damage is already done, there's not a lot he can do to alter the collision course. Another may believe if a mistake is made, someone has to assume responsibility and that someone has to take subsequent counter-measures and make do for the error.

Now both the cases have their own black and white. The first case is good enough to generate a super massive negative conscience that can actually crumble a person and make him his own slave. The second case defeats the definition of impartiality and causes all kinds predicaments in the way of person who holds himself accountable. I strongly believe in equality and I have to agree logically the second case does make a lot of sense to me. Its also the mature thing to do. Now at this exact point comes a cross-road where your cerebrum refuses its office. Now that you've made the decision of being culpable, what next. How do you really make it up? In some cases the solution is pretty crystal clear, and if you're still in the sphere of trust, it shouldn't be much of a hassle. The crunch time is when you're not even close to the shadow of trust. Even a Mark Antony speech at this time wont save you from the line of fire, how much ever fickle minded your Roman audience is. The firing squad is all set with the scopes pointing at you. One wrong move and you're out of the game already. At this point when you return to the fork, you might have realized that even after assuming responsibility taking the other way out was the better option.

People may look at it as you've taken the easier way out. But even if you have some compassion left in you, realization dawns upon you. The human inside you is still alive even after a stone cold decision. Yes that human in you will prompt you at all times that you've left the other person in a box of despair and killed all kinds of hope. From the Dark Knight, "Sometimes truth isn't good enough, sometimes people deserve more.."

In all certainty, the battle with one's conscience is the most difficult and perilous. Its a herculean task and most people succumb to its wrath. For a simpleton, its called forgetting everything and moving on. For the ones who are still on battlefield, just have to do enough good that someday you can step up to your conscience and say, I'm sorry for everything. Only at this point are you purged of all the mistakes that have been committed. As for the person who got the raw deal, they have their own conscience crusade, don't be disturbed by one horrendous experience, keep faith! The world is still full of good people! :)

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